Hey, this is Chiba. I believe the last time I updated was last year, in April. Over a year a go. And before that, a year as well. It's funny how much I've gotten.. older. Not really in some sense (I guess...). But, it's as if at one point I was connected to here (deviantart). I had some really nice times here, and I made very close friends.

I remember my closest I met on here was RedInkDemon. Or 'Red'. We were very very close, and I felt as if I could tell her everything (which I did). I considered her one of my best friends. Even my friends in real life knew of her because I chatted about her so frequently. I know this sounds retarded and sounds like I'm inlove or something that is not.. but friendship is an important thing to me. Red was one of my best friends, she was VERY reliable. Unlike me. I was probably the biggest jerk off, and we haven't talked in probably 2 years. Shut the fuck up if this sounds sappy or you don't believe me. But I'm deeply sorry Red, that our friendship went to pieces! It's my fault, I apologize. I've tried to get a hold of you... but it's impossible. So hopefully one day you'll read this.

Now.. I really wish I had that 'surge' in me to draw. I rarely rarely raaarely ever draw now. I drew about two days ago (the first time in probably half a year) and I felt so nostalgic! Like I was back in my quiet place, were I can let everything out in a simple drawing. Even though my drawings are shit, I didn't give a fuck. I miss those days! I wish I could go back and re-live them.

I do promise you this. Even though my promises are unsure.. it's something I still want to do- draw! I will always love it. I still doodle in notebooks. But I really want to start all over again. I miss drawing, I miss watching anime (I just read the manga), I miss my friends, I miss getting all giddy when someone 'amazing' commented you, or just said hello! I miss nekos paint chat, paint chats in general!, staying up all night just to talk. I miss that close connection I had here! It was such a trusting place (some drama though I will admit...).

And I've probably changed a LOT. I would hate to write down my life story on here, to probably a new generation (perhaps not). So I leave you with this. I will probably one day come back here, re read this, and laugh. I do really mean what I say. I don't give a shit if you think it's stupid. I'm happy with what I wrote.